Today's Devotions

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Showcase: Assorted Treats

  • Difficult People to Love +

    Loving others is not easy, Read More
  • River of Love +

    There's a river of love that runs through all timeBut there's a river of grief that floods through our livesIt Read More
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dcloudsmay11No one prays for a thing that they fear.  No one prays for something they don't welcome.

 


I used to be afraid of the Holy Spirit.  It may never have been stated directly, but I grew up hearing many implications that those who believed the Spirit was active were teaching “false doctrine.”  I grew to believe that whatever he was, he wasn't a person, and I needed to stay in meticulous control of my theology.  I was determined to be serious about God.

 

I was a missionary in Japan when I became friends with a couple at church who were absurdly cheerful.  They seemed to have no desire to talk about anything but the goodness of God.  When the wife suddenly went blind, and they were both still laughing, I told her husband, “I want what you've got.”

 



Knowing about my theology, he grinned as he whispered, “It's the Spirit.”

 



I remember my wordless thoughts in the next few seconds.  It was more or less, “Oh no!  Do I still want that?  Yeah.  Yeah, I do.”  I then felt a love like I'd never even heard described.

 



It was the first moment of my life that I welcomed all of God.  It started me on a journey of wanting him, rather than information about him; wanting to love him, not merely obey him; wanting to interact with him, rather than just believe he's here.

 

 


My first prayer now is for the manifest presence of God in my life.  I want nothing more.

 



I want to see his face, hear his voice, and be incapable of not responding to his tangible, undeniable presence.


Joy, peace, and hope only come through a relationship with God – all of God.  May you overflow with hope, by the power of the Holy Spirit.

 

Holly L

Reflections to Consider

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Publications

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Music

  • River of Love

    There's a river of love that runs through all timeBut there's a river of grief that floods through our livesIt Read More
  • I Am Nothing

    I stutter when I tryTo speak the language of lifeI want to shout out loudBut I just cry insideSometimes it Read More
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Audio & Video

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Favorites

  • Transforming this World: The Hope of Glory by NT Wright +

    Wright confronts the perspective that this world doesn’t matter, and that we live only to be in heaven. He shows Read More
  • What is Good in a World that Defies Hope: a talk by NT Wright +

    This is the second part of three talks by NT Wright at Harvard University in November, 2008 on the topic Read More
  • The Stream, the Lake and the River: NT Wright +

      Acts 2.1-21; John 7.37-39; a sermon at the Eucharist on the Feast of Pentecost, 11 May 2008, by the Read More
  • Jesus in the Perfect Storm by NT Wright +

    Zechariah 9.9-17; Luke 19.28-48; A sermon for Palm Sunday, April 17, 2011, In the University Chapel of St Salvator, St Read More
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Hidden Blessings

  • Christ is a Great Savior: a review of the movie Amazing Grace +

    Amazing Grace is a historical drama about William Wilberforce who was elected to British Parliament at the age of 21 Read More
  • Wilberforce, Hollywood's Amazing Grace, Charlotte Allen +

    William Wilberforce's relentless campaign eventually led the British Parliament to ban the slave trade, in 1807, and to pass a Read More
  • Making Beauty out of Ugly Things: Grace by U2 +

    Grace, she takes the blame She covers the shame Removes the stain It could be her name Grace, she carries Read More
  • The True Nature of Grace and Love: a movie review of the Soloist +

    The 2009 movie The Soloist is based on a book by the same name, written by Los Angeles Times columnist Read More
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